CTC is back! 1.5 years of faithlessness and still going strong.
It was with much surprise that when I checked this blog for the first time in many months, I found that it still receives a lot of traffic. Who would have guessed. A while back I had taken a job which restricted my abilities to take part in any online communities. Recently, I’ve decided to make a return, if for no other reason than to have a reason for the swarm of often incoherent thoughts that crowd my mind.
It’s been more than a year and a half since I made public my departure from the Christian faith. The difference in not only my relationship to Christianity, but also my perception of Christianity, has changed so much that it is hard to describe. The fact that I spent seven years as a Christian is almost surreal to me. My interaction with religion is now more of a moviegoer with a passing interest than a participant with a vested interest.
Eighteen months later, I find myself perfectly content with my decision. A far cry from the predictions of emotional doom and torment from some of my former ‘brothers’ and ‘sisters,’ the world seems to make far more sense without filtering every idea through the paradigm of evangelical Christianity. Certainly I am not content with the state of affairs in the world, or even my own life, but I am entirely content with my ability to traverse the uncertain waters of this world without the need to turn to an invisible parent figure with all of the answers.
My atheism has matured, if you will. I am neither fueled by animosity toward religion nor indifferent to its effects on society. Last fall I had the opportunity to do some community work with several Christian pastors and even a seminary professor. My interactions with them were nothing but positive. In an environment where the topic of religion was secondary at most, they were an absolute delight to have around. They were some of the most interesting people I worked with; certainly I believe they hold to some very wrong ideas, but who doesn’t?
On the other hand, I am convinced as ever that as time goes on, humanity’s dependence on religion dissipate. I am also fairly convinced that while religion has a muddied mixture of positive and negative influence on the world, it will generally be better for the world to move beyond religion.
In my own life, I find that changes in my life are still rather miniscule. I have yet to commit a murder, steal vast sums of money, or partake in animal sacrifice. Just this morning someone labled me a “really nice guy.” I haven’t turned to backbiting or begun to destroy friendships. Perhaps the single largest change in lifestyle is that I consume, in moderation, alcohol *gasp* in a variety of social settings. And yet, it hasn’t led me down a path of alcoholism and public unrulyness. Who would have guessed?
As a Christian, I couldn’t imagine life without leaning on the person of Christ as the lens through which I viewed the world. As a post-Christian, I couldn’t be happier to look out into a universe full of questions and mysteries, knowing that my finite mind will be able to unravel and comprehend a fraction of them, and be thoroughly convinced to stand in awe at the sheer depth of questions I will never be able to understand.
I leave you with a note from Carl Sagan, “We make our world significant by the courage of our questions and the depth of our answers.”